I've never been so tired in my life.
Between work, living in a foreign country, and other personal issues - it really is very stressful. Never have I been so tired in my life.
"He who does not work, let him not eat." I forgot where that quote originally came from, but considering the amount of work that I have to do, sometimes I don't feel like eating anymore. Actually, it isn't the amount of work, it is more of the nature of the work.
Don't get me wrong - I love my job. I just moved into a new role, that's why I'm here (partly) - and it is absolutely great. I get to control and influence a lot of things, and for the first time in my professional career, I actually feel like I'm in charge. Almost. At least until this week.
The problem with my job (I am a project manager, by the way) is that you are ultimately responsible for whatever happens to your project. Never mind if resource managers suddenly pull out your most experienced resources and replace them with new people (who were hired 2 weeks ago), it doesn't matter if your customers give you all of the requirements at the very last minute (despite months of constant, almost daily follow-up), nor does it matter if your manager doesn't support you at all - and tries to poke holes and see problems into everything that you do. YOU are responsible, YOU are the "one neck to choke" if everything falls apart.
Sometimes, I wonder if all this is worth it. Should I transfer somewhere else? Will it be better?
"It happens in all bloodsucking corporations," my friend said. Touche!
Oh well, at least I get to travel. :)
4 comments:
Kainis di ba, when something is out of your control yet you get blamed. We get that a lot lately, as you have read in my blog :p
-Mich
its getting to your nerves ha!!! take it easy....stressed out ka na.
at least in builds your character... i think. :p
Hahaha - oo nga, its really stressful. I cannot even reload my Polish cellphone without help. Oh well...in the end it's just work.
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